Ramblings of a Single Parent Goddess

The Goddess Rambles, but you can't help but listen.

If I Quit…

If I Quit

if i quit being a mother
if i quit loving
if i quit being a sister
if i quit being angry
if i quit being a student
if i quit being a friend
if i quit being honest
if i quit being happy
if i quit being human

i quit being me

if i quit all of what i am, no matter how wrong
to please others
i will cease to exist in the form where i can improve
and make a difference in the lives of the people that mean the most to me.

accept me for who i am, but don’t give up on me.

to all that i have wronged
and will wrong in the future
i am sorry but your forgiveness is not warranted.
your insight is the most beneficial.
no matter how much it hurts me.

i will thank you for it in the end.

personally
or
not,
but
through
my
actions

October 19, 2009 Posted by ramblingsingleparentgoddess | insight | | No Comments Yet

life is like a box of chocolates…

you never know what you are gonna get, but you always know that most of them are going to taste like shite and are going to end up back in the package with a bite out of them.

i am one of those chocolates. most people take a bite and realize that they don’t like the taste so they put me back in the box. i get tired though, of people who spend more time taking bites out of me than taking the time to try a second bite.

i am tired of apologizing for how i am.
yes i am funny
yes i am a caring person
yes i have my problems
yes i will listen to yours

unfortunately I DON’T HAVE A FECKING FILTER!!!

things fly out of my mouth and i hurt peoples feelings.
i am tired of being taught a lesson so fuck everyone for the time being. i think that will help me with my sanity.

the reason i stopped making apologies to most people about my personality is that i cannot change it without wanting to slit my wrist to the fucking elbow.

grrrrrrrrrr

for the most part, i am done with sorry. there are some people who understand me and they will be lifelong friends because they stopped trying to figure me out a long time ago and are willing to accept my apologies when i fuck up (and i am the last person who will EVER admit to being perfect and not making mistakes). thank the lord for patient people who understand that human nature is not to be understood always and sometimes forgiven.

i think that family is the least forgiving and for that, i will say a prayer because i can only take so much.

woooooo saaaaaaah

Goddess

October 17, 2009 Posted by ramblingsingleparentgoddess | insight | | No Comments Yet

The Playpen: Prison for kids or Early Release for parents?

I’ll tell you what I think of play pens. They will keep your kids from getting kicked in the jaw during your Tae Kwon Do class but is there more than?
I don’t think so. I practiced my Martial Art at a school every morning at 10am and he needed to be held back a bit.
Once he got that look that he was going to hop out and kick my butt for keeping him in there, he got to come out. He did get hit maybe once or twice (never too hard) because you are also more aware of your child’s presence when you are required to be aware of their location and well being.
There are animal rights groups that are against crating your cats and dogs in the house. I don’t want a dog who gets out of a crate ever morning and tears through my house looking for something ‘new’ to destroy the moment I avert my eyes and I sure don’t want a kid who gets out of a play pen and does the same.

When I was a kid, we barely had car restraint systems. We could climb out of a crib or a high chair with the dexterity of a kangaroo at the kiddie play area at the local mall. There is no reason to hold the child still because they have a tendency to learn better if they are out and exploring in their environment. Children are meant to get out and explore all of their world. How else can they learn. Their parents get to touch everything? Why can’t they do they same within reason?
How many toys can you put into a playpen to keep a child interested? I say as few toys as possible.
I see some folks get to the park with the playpen in tow and a soccer ball bag full of toys!!!!! WTF????
Leave that behemoth at home, put on your shorts and running shoes and chase the children. That is why God gave them legs… to run their parents insane heading for the curb with traffic whizzing by at 40 mph.
I am sure that every parent remembers “that one time… when I had to smack little Jimmy on his bottom as I caught him from running out onto the expressway”…. let’s keep those learning moments for both children kept safe by their parents and parents safe in the knowledge that they can continue teaching from the heart and not from convenience.

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October 2, 2009 Posted by ramblingsingleparentgoddess | JuiceBox Jungle, insight, parenting | | 1 Comment

we want your money and your labor, not your children

The community is connected by a bridge to Ciudad Acuna, Mexico, and like most border cities, the towns operate in tandem, with U.S. citizens and green cardholders living, working and shopping on both sides. All of it is legal, but public school attendance by children living in Mexico is another issue.
click here for the article

if you read the news story and then you read the posts, i don’t see most of the posters here wanting change. they just want to put up brick walls to keep people out.
what it sounds like is happening in this town is that it seems okay to have the two towns work together for money, i.e. shopping, working etc., but is it too much to also allow the children to attend the schools?

something tells me that if the Los Rios school district expels the Acuna children who cannot provide residency, then perhaps all of the people from Acuna should pull themselves out completely , not just the children who cannot present with proper residency papers (not read: immigration papers) including their labor and cash flow and see what Los Rios can do without them. if it betters their schools and saves them money fine. The people of Acuna can use the money they are not spending in the US to hire US teachers to teach their children in Mexico. Teachers get no respect here and might fare better at a school in Northern Mexico where the parents truly value a quality education for their children and are willing to pay more for it.

I am a living example of the residency issue. I live in a city where there are procedures that will allow you to do an inter-district transfer of your child to another school. I took all of the valid steps to get my son in, but lost out on getting him in because everyone faked papers and used the addresses of people they new in that area to get their kids in. it is a catch-22. you can’t win for losing because if you do it the right way, you get screwed. I can understand what the people of Acuna are doing. they have every right to find an apartment, but why not let education be shared like the trade of workers and money?

maybe it is time for change. let’s look for flexibility in the changes that we can make to improve not just our lives but the lives of many.

Goddess

September 24, 2009 Posted by ramblingsingleparentgoddess | insight | | No Comments Yet

Ever want to feel like you walked into a clan meeting?

howdy! come on down to Marie’s Donuts, located in the middle of a predominantly minority area of North Highlands CA

Marie's Donuts

Marie's Donuts

with a church on either side of it. bring your family but keep the dark ones quiet.

you can’t go wrong with what i believe are the best donuts in the world. on any given day, you can walk in and watch WWII veterans talking about the war over a .40 cup of joe. you can be greeted by the wonderful aroma of freshly prepared donuts. it used to be a safe place where everyone was polite and still used their southern manners. it used to be a wonderful place that i would visit with my dad when i was a child.

he knew the donuts there were the best and i have since come to agree with that opinion.

however, what i am not feeling too good about is the change in the atmosphere since the election of 2008 or as some, those who don’t want change in America, would like to call it… Armageddon.

there are lines drawn in the sand there where it used to be a place where everyone knew your name and respect was given in kind.
i got cut in front of twice this morning, but i felt that i could say nothing because then i would just be living up to the expectations of a room full of ‘birthers’ who still believe our 44rd president is not a citizen of the United States and that he wants to take over the US and change the name to the USRA -the United Socialist Republik of Amerika-
when is it i get to wild out again on the folks that consume me with a rage so deep seated that i want to hit them with sticks, not caring about what i will look like in the end?

good thing is i don’t want to be that way. bad thing is i wish i could. i don’t want to be labeled the bad nigger. i don’t want to be the stereotypical black who has no respect for themselves or for anyone else that isn’t on welfare and collecting the poor white man’s hard earned money.

i wish things could go back to the way they were too. but for one reason only.

i want to go back to a time when you were not so angry with us because there was no minority holding the highest office of power in OUR country.
not back to a time when we could all get along because you felt that you were superior. back to a time when yessir and yes’m was the way it was agreed we would respond to you to avoid having our homes burned down, our husbands hung by the oak tree or at the gallows in the center of town. back to a time when our families would not be sold and broken apart if you could take our wives into your bedrooms. back to a time when you could whip us with the same device you used to herd cattle, because we looked up when we should have been looking down.
back to yesterday that we have fought so hard to change.

i want to just say ’suck it up! your guy lost and our guy won.’ but that is not the case.

through the election process, someone had to get elected. this time it juuuuuuust happened to be a man of color. this is how it is. this is the result of the election. i know more young white Americans voted for President Obama than you can shake a stick at. he was not voted into office by a bunch of uppity nigrahs. he was voted into office by a majority of the people in this country who are open to change and pursuit of happiness.

all in HOPE that there will be a better future for their children… our children… everyone’s children.

thanks to Marie’s Donuts for providing North Highlands with the best donuts on the planet for a great price, but here’s to hoping some of your patrons from Rio Linda keep the hate mongering and rudeness to themselves.

Goddess

September 22, 2009 Posted by ramblingsingleparentgoddess | Barack Obama, insight, politics, racism | , , , | No Comments Yet

Some of not Black America is pissed…

…truth be told, i cannot believe that certain people are unable to accept change. i think that a majority of us were taught to roll with it and accept that change happens. in the ’80s it used to be ’shit happens’.

yes. things change.
they just do.
people change.
time changes.
minds change.

the weather… that changes.

but when the sky turns gray and the rain begins to fall, do you march on the Vatican or the Temples of the Mormon church or at Oral Roberts University because you can’t handle the change?

no.

you deal with it, put on your damn raincoats and head on out into the world.

i just want to point out a few things.

President Obama is not a BLACK MAN.
he is not a witch doctor.
he is not a reincarnation of Adolf Hitler
he is not Satan and he is not the Messiah

he is a MAN who won the presidential election of 2008.

he is the President.

we have to stop talking shit. NOTHING is getting done because we choose to sit around and bicker and complain about the change he promised us because it does not fit into the round hole.

we do not march down Pennsylvania Ave to stand outside the capitol because we are pissed that our guy didn’t win.
we put on our freaking rain coats and bend with the wind.

“I haven’t laughed so hard since Katie Couric interviewed Sarah Palin. A few thousand white folks called in sick to work last week so they could parade around the nation’s capital on Saturday and Fox News declares a revolution is underway. “

hell, some of us need to put on our waders and bring an umbrella too (there may be a few who need to put the foil back on their heads)!
but we just need to get out into the world and weather the “storm”
what that storm brings to you, and what you are willing to accept is the question.
is it going to wash away your crops or is it going to bring sustaining moisture to allow you to grow what you and your community needs?

however you take it is up to you…

put your waders on and put your pacifiers down America and let’s get this country chuggin’ again!

goddess

September 21, 2009 Posted by ramblingsingleparentgoddess | Controversy | , , , , , , | No Comments Yet

Love and tennis balls

*caution. NO PC FILTER APPLIED*
“I’m going to shove this ball down your f—— throat”.

Ya know, I watched the replay on this and that was no way near a foot fault.
Yes, Serena let her emotions get the best of her, and she was more than wrong for that, but the line judge said that Serena said she was going to kill her.

I have one thing to say to all of that. Say the right fucking words. (she could messed up even more and said ‘that big black girl said she was going to kill me’. THAT would have been more than wrong. Was it possible that was what she was thinking and that is why she paraphrased instead of just restating the comment by Serena?)  Either way, it should have been done better on both sides.

What she could have said to the officials was. ‘Ms. Williams said that she was going to shove the ball down my f——- throat” and let the judges go from there.  The word “kill” caused more problems than there should have been.
Impose a penalty and fine Serena for her comment and the behavior afterward, but it is time to let that shit go.

Goddess

September 18, 2009 Posted by ramblingsingleparentgoddess | Controversy | , , , | No Comments Yet

Judge not, lest ye be judged.

Who are you accountable for (excepting your children until they turn 18 and move out into the world)?

You and only you.

Too many people are making mistakes that are tied to their jobs, their affiliations, their nations, and the color of your skin.
It is time we started back to the day when we worried about not WHEN but WHERE our moms would come out and smack us in the head for not thinking clearly or opening our mouths and saying shit we KNOW we shouldn’t say.

The time is now to make changes in our lives that affect only ourselves and not the people or entities around us. Too many people judge not just you but what you might represent or who you hang out with by your actions alone.

You must be smart when you are hanging onto the reputation of any business or organization that is not yours. Same thing with the “you lie!” senator Wilson.

We have to be cautious about our actions especially when we are in the public eye.

ACORN is not an organization that should be brought down in flames by employees who make mistakes and an activist filmmaker. If you saw the video clip of the pimp and the prostitute, you would have played along with them as well if they came into your office. The pimp had on the hat, the coat and the can that EVERYONE would draw if they were asked to do so of a pimp and a ho.
True accountability sometimes means shutting your damn mouth. We should raise our kids this way and society should hold them accountable as individuals and not the organization they are affiliated with.

We live in a crazy society where a presidency can be brought down by some folks making waves because some employees decided to act stupidly.
If you have a tendency to make stupid mistakes, please make sure that you are employed by a company that is not so much in the public eye that if you happen to foul up, heads will not roll.

Goddess

September 18, 2009 Posted by ramblingsingleparentgoddess | insight | | No Comments Yet

what would happen if we had to pay for EVERYTHING

We would not be able to flush our own shit people!

Credit is what built this nation and many would like to see us never have to worry about things being charge out, over or off for the greater good.

I have been very ill as of late and if I had to pay full price for all of the doctor’s visits, cat scans, x-rays, prescriptions, blood tests and the like, I would have filed for bankruptcy about 2 weeks into it.

There is no way that we, as an American people would be able to help one another enough with the way we think if we had no welfare, no VA, no medical, no Medicare. everything would work on donations from the rich (yeah the people who don’t want to share now) or from those who have not filed for protection from creditors if they had to pocket the cost of the roads they drive on, the water they drink, the sewer that takes away all of their household waste.

How would we survive?

I know there is no easy fix to the health care crisis but to take big business out of it.
If companies were in this to help people, there would be no problem with health care. when you stretch out your procedures and wait painfully long times to do trials and then an even longer time to announce results and findings just to make sure your pockets stay lined so your kids can spend 4 years at Princeton smoking pot, drinking booze, and waiting for a seat to be cleared for their job that mommy or daddy bought them, it is next to impossible to keep the bottom lines of big business out of our bodies.

The only people suffering right now are the lower, middle and upper middle class people of the United States. I don’t have the numbers in my head right now, but that is a majority of America people!

The best way to work on preservation is to work on what you have in your little world.
1. Plant a garden with food that you can manage
2. Can and preserve what you can
3. Get to know your neighbors… WELL
4. Work on a coop where you share what you cannot eat, can or preserve with your neighbors. If you all are growing different types of foods, just imagine how far that can go.
5. Co-op childcare so that you will not have to pay every single last time you make in child care costs
6. Use the public schools for their purpose
7. be active in your cities and towns. Join the school council, run for mayor, become a councilperson.
8. Don’t be afraid to speak your own thoughts but DO NOT SHOUT THEM! Lately, so many people are yelling that the children are beginning to get scared and the dogs are running to the corners to hide.
9. Have faith that things can and will change. Don’t give up because of a hard time trying implementing a plan.
10. SHARE YOUR KNOWLEDGE! Do not hoard what you know. Do not be ashamed or embarrassed having information that might sound silly at first but if put with other great minds can cause great change.

This is a living list

If we all live it and bring it to life, there should be no problem with changing the world we see it and work from ‘needs’ portion of the list instead of the ‘wants’.

We all have choices to make.
We all have change to effect.
We all have a right to a peaceful.
We all have a right to stay healthy.

We all have a right to work alone or together but rule number 10 says it might be a good idea to occasionally pop out of your burrow to share the information with others.

September 16, 2009 Posted by ramblingsingleparentgoddess | insight | , , , , , , , | No Comments Yet

Let’s Bring Polite Back

I don’t understand why children go off to college and forget all of their manners. Is that because they are spreading their wings away from the parental nest and want to test the boundaries? Maybe it is because they were raised with no manners. I swear to Goddess, if one more time, I am walking as far to the right as I can and another 19 or 20 year old walks into me acting like I am blocking the road way, the shit is going to hit the proverbial fan.
I don’t know when lack of manners stopped being a rule and being rude became the social norm.
Probably about the time handwriting became an elective in elementary school.
I say that ‘please’ and ‘thank you’ come back into fashion again. Let’s make it a mandatory class in high school like home economics. Teach kids how to cook and sew. How to balance a checkbook and how to open door for people and how to jusy be nice.
I hate to say that we are part of a culture who is hell bent on sending our manners up the road with the dinosaurs.
It’s time we bring old fashion, common sense, respectable ‘boy-don’t-you-make-me -have-to-snatch-you-up-in-public’ manners back.

Goddess

September 11, 2009 Posted by ramblingsingleparentgoddess | parenting | , , , , , , , , , , | No Comments Yet