*recently inspired by http://www.giveneyestosee.com
i have been saying for years but have recently, stopped saying because it isn’t worth it to me anymore.
seriously, it is the outward opinion of others that i “look just fine” that drives me to the edge. i look fine. i look so happy. i look like i am truly enjoying life.
if only they knew what it took for me to get out of bed that morning. if they only knew the pain i smile through and the constant movement i create in my body to block the actual pain. if they only knew that sleeping for 12 hours ain’t shit!
if only they knew that i can’t play “slug bug” like everyone else… (god bless my little Milo. i taught him how to play it and keep mom out of pain)
not a day goes by in which i don’t remember or am not reminded that everything SHOULD be fine.
i look fine.
i’m in pain but…
i’m hanging in there
i’m on my own timetable
i’m living with fibromyalgia and it’s as okay as it’s gonna get for now.
i feel some of what she feels and i don’t feel so alone anymore…..